I/H

" dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan solat ; dan sesungguhnya solat itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang orang yang khusu'" (2:45)  apa itu sabar? sabar itu menahan diri. Tahan diri dari segala segi/bentuk ujian yang datang, Menahan diri itu adalah berpuasa. Jadi, berpuasalah bagi orang yang bersabar. Sifat orang yang sabar adalah orang yang yakin dengan usaha, dan redha dengan taqdir. Definisi yang indah dan sekarang masa untuk apply. Solat adalah doa, Doa adalah penyerahan bukan tuntutan. Kita telah berusaha tetapi gagal. Kita telah meminta pertolongan makhluk tetapi itu juga gagal. Apa lagi pilihan yang masih ada kecuali menyerahkan segala urusan kepada Tuhan yang di Tangan-Nya terletak segala perkara. Serahkan kepada Allah s.w.t dan tanyalah kepada diri sendiri mengapa Tuhan menahan kita dari memperolehi apa yang kita hajatkan? Apakah tidak mungkin apa yang kita inginkan itu boleh mendatangkan mudarat kepada diri kita sen...

serba salah menyusahkan orang, serba salah tipu, serba salah sebab takde effort, serba salah dengan diri sendiri. ini lah sengsara yang berbaki. yang menghantui. ini lah sesuatu yang akan aku kena bayar, satu hari nanti. Tuhan. how i'm gonna repay this

bila masa dah nak time, dan waktu tu anda berada di tengah perjalanan. mesti rasa sesak nafas.  take a deep breathe, step by step. you will go to the final as you planned. schedule overruns is okay, as long you convinced that everything must be follow as you have planned. just it is about time, and you need a big sacrifice for overcome the problem that you have created. no sigh. no cry. i wont create another semester for this! your target! himnaesaeyo! teehee

"selamat pagi, waktu pembawa rezeki. ada orang kata hidup kita ditentukan dengan cara macammana kita bangun pagi tu, maksudnya kalau pagi tu kita bangun dalam keadaan ceria, maka ceria la satu hari tu. tapi kalau kita tak ceria. maka nikmatilah kita dengan hari yang tak ceria. jadi, kalau nak elakkan hari yang tak happy, mulakan lah hari tu pagi pagi dengan senyuman. mulakan dengan rasa bersyukur, dan berdoa agar hari ni lebih baik dari hari hari sebelum ni" - cita dan cinta episode 2, monolog intro. basic, cliche. but yes, i have tested this on me. totally acceptable, and functionable. betul lah, kat mana setiap kejadian yang Allah cipta cukup sempurna, sampai kerdip mata kita pun, Allah yang aturkan. it goes well and beautifully arranged. cumanya kita yang gerakkan tubuh badan kita dan control kemahuan kita dan gunakan akal untuk jadikan satu perkara itu untuk jadi rasional atau tidak. kalau kita bangun pagi ceria, mindset tu akan tolong kita sampai kita tidur balik...

I always needed some motivations after i had enough with all the efforts and when it seems like doesn't work at all. After a big sigh, i put everything down, and let them go just follow the flow. right after a long pause, i really need to think again. who am i doing this to. I mean what is my intention, why must sigh, when your effort is so priceless and you almost get into your goals. Abah was so right. He pumped up all my weaknesses to a strength with his words. Which is very thoughtful. Intention, and goals. Both are directly because of Allah, which is our doings is because of Him. and we have nothing to regret about when we know, He will never gonna put us down if we depending on Him everytime, raise our hand for du'as and boost the effort. Like you are gonna doing this things, once in your lifetime. And two. Did our doings is useful for people out there? three,  this is Amanah to us, to be as khalifah, and lead the world. weh, my dad have this far away thinking...

hey. it been awhile. since i have shared everything, here. and there. like a lot. time by time, everyone has grown up. really big i can see. and everything has been changed. from attire, body size, maturity, and life management. or maybe they have changed more. and more. and i dont spend any 'words' here anymore. i like it that way, personality builded by how you manage everything around you. things happened and, its you who can control it. dont let it stand for your life, or you will ruin it. you will ruin your life. i'm missed my crazy blog too. that one which i have deleted every older posts because i am too embarrassed, yeah i hate read my stupidness. lol. someone changed me, He changed me. and finally i can think. but, not really. i leave myself silent on purpose. to be too be careful, or to be too upset. ..... about everything, or maybe not everything. btw, everything is around the corner. i can see my tiny efforts and struggles really...