guilty built inside

serba salah menyusahkan orang,
serba salah tipu,
serba salah sebab takde effort,

serba salah dengan diri sendiri.

ini lah sengsara yang berbaki.
yang menghantui.
ini lah sesuatu yang akan aku kena bayar, satu hari nanti.
Tuhan.



how i'm gonna repay this




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